Heartbroken

I feel like a complete failure.  I want to kick myself in the face for being an impulsive and emotional person.  My follow through sucks and I hate living with regrets.  

But it looks like I just did all that.    

Regretfully, I am taking Carmen back and it breaks my heart into pieces.  Without going into details, it just isn't working out with every family member and if we're not all on the same page, then it is not going to work. 

Why do I have to get so attached and have a huge heart for dogs?  Why can't I just be content with what I have?  I think I am most frustrated with myself and dragging everyone else into this.  But it's something that I have to live with and learn from I suppose.  I hate being in this situation.  It sucks - big time.  

My Valentines' wish is that I can pick up the pieces of my broken heart and somehow put them back together.